For as long as I can remember, my close ones have said "Clare made it, by the skin of her teeth". I've hit my mark but on the buzzer. I've hit rock bottom only to get a Hail Mary from The Universe. I'll get granted the best opportunities just as I'm about to change direction. And as I'm getting older, that hasn't changed.
I wanted a mortgage before I turned 25. I had one, kinda. I just didn't sign the contract for the keys but I did have the mortgage approval and signed the dotted line. I'm considering that a win, but barely. And that "win" came right around my 25th birthday.
I needed to find an apartment for March 1st, 2023. When did I find it? February 26th.
I wanted the Manager title again before I turned 27. When did that happen? Unofficially, a few days before my birthday and the offer letter signed days after.
Now, I have the joy of finding my own place before March 1st, 2024. It's what's prompted this thought / blog. I've been looking and was prepared to sign for Feb 1st, needing to break my current lease early. I wanted to be secure and was willing to take a financial hit to do so. However, The Universe knows that even with my preparation....I will not be given the perfect palace until a few days before the deadline. It's a self fulfilling prophecy.
I've been on countless apartment tours and have been stood up, ghosted, beat out, and anything else you can guess about the New York City housing marketing. I've applied to the lottery, I've been on FB Marketplace, I've contacted friends of friends to find lease takeovers, I've toured Craigslist ads, and the typical Zillow/StreetEasy/Apartments.com. It's an uphill battle that is taking it's toll.
I won't be rewarded for my early dedication to the cause. But I know the most beautiful home will be mine, within days of my deadline. Because that's how it's always been for me. And at this point, as much as I can hate the rushing and stress..I wouldn't have it any other way. I will find the most beautiful place to call mine for the next 12 to 15 months, with my own quirk in it's charm. And I will find it right when I'm supposed to, when The Universe decides, and only a few short days before I need to give up my current keys.
